It gets old!

Pain that is…I was doing better today, although woozy a lot when I got up this morning so I went back to bed until around 10:30 and the wooziness wasn’t nearly as bad when I got up then. I’ve taken it easy today, trying to make sure I don’t overdo it. I fixed the chicken and rice (for supper) at 3:30 and covered it and left it on the stove to put in later (it takes an hour and a half total cook time). At 4:30 I got up, went in, put the dish in the oven, and was about to fry up the bacon for the green beans when the pain hit me with a vengeance. I doubled over and hollered “OH” before I could stop myself, and Jared dropped his book and came running. I hate that I did that in front of him. He’s my kid, not my doctor or my servant, and I hate worrying him. Long story a tad bit shorter, HE fried up the bacon for me. All I did was add the green beans and water.

Still…supper is in progress and its ok for me to take it easy right now. I’ll get up in about 20 minutes and make the biscuits and put those in to bake when I take the tin foil off the chicken and rice. Then the family will be taken care of and I can rest easier. Thank goodness I planned an easy supper tonight!

I’m afraid I’m in a rut with my health. I was doing and feeling so much better, and all of September and October I’ve been in and out of hospitals and doctors’ offices. I THINK I’m better, but you couldn’t tell it by my symptoms. The worst is this chronic pain. I’ve heard of people having chronic pain, but never thought it’d happen to me. I’m not even sure if this is what’s wrong with me…all I know is that I hurt all the time and its REALLY affecting my moods. Try being bipolar and dealing with those issues and then have constant, nagging pain thrown in on top of that!

I want to wrestle with my kids again. I want to jump on the trampoline with them again. I want to PLAY with them. This isn’t just robbing me, its robbing my children and that pisses me off more than anything else.